Self-Pleasuring Shoe Fetish Combats Painful PTSD Triggers

Hello, I'm a U.S. Army Veteran diagnosed with service-connected PTSD. I attend Telehealth Traditional Talk Therapy at the VA Hospital virtual sessions while taking prescribed Bupropion HCL for Depression and also Divalproex. Fed-up with walking around in a zombie-like state that this program produces, I decided to add pleasure back into my life by adding O/M sessions to my traditional mental health program. I combined virtual Talk Therapy with Orgasmic Meditation therapists. In these sessions I focus/meditate on the therapist's Closed Pointed Toe High Heels, Louboutin's, Stilettos, Office Pumps, etc. (my shoe fetish) that they're wearing with the video cameras focused on their Shoes. The shoe fetish relaxes me to a point where I can O/M pleasure over my painful PTSD triggers allowing me to have a meaningful dialogue with the therapists. It's working very well with prolonged pleasure and happiness existing well beyond therapy sessions. In addition, my O/M Therapists have CST, LPC, PhD and Clinical Psychosexual Therapist Accredited Mental Health Social Worker(s) credentials, both therapists have demanding schedules so no sessions at present therefore it would be an Adult Female from Birth would be immensely helpful.